Devotional Non-Duality

Do you need a spiritual teacher to assist you on your path?

“This world is full of false belief systems, egos, dogma, doctrines and outright efforts to keep you in ignorance.”

—Robert Smalley

My Story:

I’ve been a serious spiritual seeker for over 10 years. The truth is, I’ve been seeking all my life for the secrete of happiness. For many years I battled depression and severe anxiety. I read countless self help books and nothing seemed to work. I tried so hard to figure out what was wrong with me. I ended up on antidepressants and anxiety medication. They masked the symptoms and allowed me to participate in life but the affects faded over time, I would go off of them, and the cycle would repeat.

About 10 years ago, I had an experience after hearing a recording of Gangaji, a non-duality teacher. She said you are not your mind, body, personality or thoughts, you are the silent awareness. Her message penetrated deep within my consciousness and I knew I had finally heard the truth. This recording was played during a spiritual group meeting led by the pastor of our presbyterian church. At the time I was in a severe depression with constant racing thoughts. I considered myself to be an atheist but I was desperate to feel better so I signed up for this small group course on different types of spiritual practices. When the meeting ended I raced home to watch more of Gangaji’s YouTube videos. Several days later I had an experience where my heart opened and I saw an inner light shining in me. I’m not going to go into all the details of the experience, but it left me forever changed and I was no longer an atheist.

This shift was not only mental and spiritual but also physical. A tremendous amount of energy began to flow through me. I had heard the truth, experienced something internally that was beyond description and now I was in a spiritual, mental and physical crisis. I really didn’t understand much about non-duality, energy systems, chakras, kundalini, etc. But my life was forever changed and it seemed I had to learn/change or go crazy. The energy flowing through me was so strong, beyond description. My body was in severe pain from what felt like an excessive amount of electrical energy moving through my nervous and chakra systems.

After about 9 months of working through this spiritual crisis and not really understanding what happened to me, I came across a large framed picture of David Hawkins Map of Consciousness while waiting to see a therapist. I knew I had seen the truth. No inner lights, fireworks, etc., I just knew I had seen something very important. I went home and ordered several of his books and since then he has been my primary teacher.

Several years later a second extremely important event occurred. I had been asking God for a teacher for a long time and then I found Robert Smalley. Robert was my spiritual teacher and mentor for 6 years until he passed on in the Spring of 2022. Robert was an ordained Essene Minister and student of Dr. Hawkins. Robert said he had been a serious spiritual student for 13 years before finding Dr. Hawkins teachings. Several years later he went over 600 (beginning states of enlightenment) while preparing for a lecture on Dr. Hawkins and the Essene teachings at a local unity church. After the lecture several folks who practiced kinesiology approached him and said that they had calibrated him and that he was over 600. He told me it took several years for his mind to go silent and then he went much higher.

There’s much more to my story but it seems keeping this short would be helpful. I’ll be glad to share on our calls anything I’ve experienced that might benefit you on your path.

Robert’s Guidance

Robert’s guidance to going higher in consciousness was really fairly simple, “Set your intentionality on God.” Develop a prayer practice asking for God’s help to go higher in consciousness. Ask God daily to teach you to love yourself and to love your neighbor as yourself. Ask God to show you the way, the truth and to set you free. He said everyday, set your intentionality to be kind, caring, considerate and compassionate towards all life, unconditionally. He was very firm about practicing these principles. And Robert would occasionally say “just read Hawkins, he has the highest calibrated stuff out there.” He encouraged starting a mediation practice and would calibrate any book, video, spiritual program, person, music, movie, etc. He understood that everything had a conscious level and that we needed to keep holy company with everything that we do. He also encouraged students to work on forgiveness and suggested a practice of writing letters to those that hurt us in the past and then burning them the next morning. And finally, he recommended suspending all opinions, judgement and criticism. He said they keep you bound to the world. In fact, he said to me to just stay quiet.

Over the years with Robert I went pretty high and fell several times. Let me tell you, falling in consciousness is no fun. You feel terrible. But the ups and downs really gave me invaluable insight of each level with its prevailing attitudes and emotions on how you perceive the world. As you move up and down in these levels you notice the mind becoming more or less active, emotional, loving, quiet, etc. They could be compared to gates you pass through. Moving up through these gates takes a lot of intentionality. It’s like a rocket burning lots of fuel to break free of the earth’s gravity. Per Robert, It may take months or even years at a specific level before all the pieces are in place to move higher. He also said some students were ripe and ready and shot up very quickly. I’m only aware of one student who reached and stayed at the level of enlightenment. Several went over 600 and then went back down. Robert’s experience was that we go up and grow into whatever level we reach. As I said above, it took several years for his mind to go silent while he calibrated in the 600’s, unlike some teachers that have a major experience where their mind suddenly goes silent and they go up very quickly. I think he felt that most go through a gradual process and go up and down a fair amount until they are ready. He told me his goal was to get all of his students over 500, the level where Love begins. He seemed to feel this was a very attainable goal. He said you could go over 500 by just dedicating your life to being kind, caring, considerate and compassionate to everyone unconditionally.

Other Experience that could be of benifit

I’ve experienced a lot and I hope I can be of help to someone else on the path who sincerely wants to go higher in Consciousness. I am not enlightened. My only goal and function in this life is to look in the mirror and know that I and my Father are One.

Please contact me at the email address below if you would like to schedule a time to discuss working together.

Blessings,

Bob Walker

Contact information

bob.walker.1968@gmail.com